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Teddy Lupin is stuck in capslock (
_turquoise
) wrote,
@
2020
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09
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06
03:18:00
thelandlords
TW: APPLICATION CONTAINS REFERENCES TO SELF-HARM
Tell me what you hate about me. Whatever it is, I'm sorry, yeah
I know I can be dramatic, but everybody said we had it, yeah
BASICS
NAME.
Edward Remus Lupin
NICKNAME.
Teddy, Tedward, T, Bear, Wild Boy, @turquoise
BLOOD STATUS.
Half-blood; Metamorphagus & "half werewolf"
BIRTHDAY.
28, 10/04/1998 (☼ Aries || Asc: Pisces || ☽ Libra)
SCHOOL.
Hufflepuff 2009 - 2016
OCCUPATION.
Post at the Ministry of Magic; Confectionery side hustle @instantcavity
ROMANTIC STATUS.
Committed to invading Vics personal space
PETS/FAMILIARS.
Eurasian Eagle Owl named Archimedes (18)
IMMEDIATE FAMILY
♂
Edward Tonks
[deceased]
♥
Andromeda Black
[1953 - ]
♀
Nymphadora
[deceased]
♥
Remus Lupin
[deceased]
♂
Edward Remus
[1998 - ]
♂
Lyall Lupin
[estranged]
♥
Hope Howell
[deceased]
♀
Remus
[deceased]
♥
Nymphadora Tonks
[deceased]
♂
Edward Remus
[1998 - ]
♂
Harry Potter
[1980 - ]
♥
Ginevra Weasley
[1981 - ]
♂
James Sirius
[2004 - ]
♂
Albus Severus
[2006 - ]
♀
Lily Luna
[2008 - ]
APPEARANCE
HEIGHT.
6'5"ish probably; he defaults around there
BUILD.
Lanky af
HAIR.
Naturally black, prefers turquoise - almost everything about his hair is mood dependent
EYES.
Naturally pale green
DISTINGUISHING MARKS.
Metamorphagus that he doesn't always have the best control over. He can very much control it if he wants to, but his emotions tend to win out, especially when he's in the Wizarding world anyway. His hair will give away his mood and sometimes he may imitate a feature of someone else without thinking about it.
OTHER NOTABLE FEATURES.
The Teddy people would see when his world is dark, is a Teddy with aristocratic features that make him feel as if he were staring at a statue rather than at his own reflection. He looks very much like a Black, aside from his fathers eyes and awkward build. When his world is dark, people are also far more likely to see his decade-old self-harm scars on his forearms and thighs.
MANNER OF DRESS.
Teddys style is rather uncomplicated. He wears what is comfortable and what is relatively clean. Some days he feels like putting himself together really nice, and others you would be lucky to get him to put on pants. His moody nature is shown in pretty much every aspect of him physically leaving most of his appearance up in the air unless you truly know how to read him. His favourite piece will always be a dark denim vest that he has patched up with every band's logo that he's seen live in concert.
PHYSICAL TICS.
Even at 28, Teddy is a ball of overly expressive energy that is always searching for some sort of outlet. He absently speaks with his entire body, usually getting too wrapped up in what he's saying to pay much attention to where his hands might be flailing off to and smashing off of. He is almost always in some form of movement whether it's fidgeting or changing something. Even when he is lazily lounging in his room without trousers, he's frequently changing positions, tossing things, or picking up one of his many half read books. The only thing he doesn't tend to change is his environment.
Teddy tends to touch a lot when he is upset or uncomfortable. He grabs for hands, clothes, hair...anything that will connect him to the person he wants to gain that comfort from or give it to. Touch is how he shows love and how he craves it as if to see love is to feel love.
PERSONALITY
LIKABLE
For the most part, Teddy is a pretty friendly young man, with not a whole lot of cruelty on his tongue unless he feels that someone really deserves it. He's chatty, witty, gets along well with others, and will do favours and run errands for those he cares about without much complaint.
UNBALANCED
Ever shake a carbonated beverage before opening it? That is Teddy when it comes to his emotions. He is incredibly moody, something that has caused questions as to what pieces of his father's condition he could have possibly inherited, on top of being related to the extinct family of Blacks. There have been certain occasions when people have noted that he is more all over the place the closer to a full moon, but how much of that is fact and how much of that is what that moon represents is a mystery all of its own. Pointing it out certainly won't will you any points. Thankfully, he has gotten better with catching his moods as they come to the surface, but no amount of maturity nor medication will even him out completely.
PROTECTOR
Just as his parents before him, Teddy has no problem with standing up for the things he believes in and pushing until there is no more pushing to be done. He is tolerant of differences as he himself is rather quite different from the average wizard in appearance alone and will speak up for the underdog without much thought of consequence. It's just the right thing to do.
INDULGENT
When Teddy loves people, he loves them with everything he is, giving them nearly anything they could ask for and exposing himself for them to hurt. This circle may be quite small, but it is mighty, and Teddy isn't afraid to show those he considers family, just how much he is thinking about them and how much he cares. He's not necessarily the best with the words, but those who receive this sort of attention from him, know it without question.
NEEDY
Teddy is needy- oh how this boy is needy, largely stemming from his fear of abandonment. When he needs someone or something, he needs it right then and there or the world may as well end. He needs attention. He needs touch. He clings to people, ideas, and things. He's possessive and insecure, needing to know that someone wants him in their life as much as he wants them.
HISTORY
(10 April 1998)
Teddy was born on Good Friday 1998 with a built-in security blanket. Within an hour of his birth, his natural black hair had turned ginger before settling on turquoise, showing that the boy had inherited his mother's gift and was a Metamorphagus. To the relief of everyone, two days later his father was the only one to be affected by the full moon. Teddy was healthy.
He was three weeks old when his parents left him in the care of his Granmum to go fight in the Battle of Hogwarts. Neither of them would return home the next morning. Minister Shacklebolt would later award the baby Teddy with the Order of Merlin: First Class on behalf of his late father.
Despite the drama, Teddy grew up a relatively happy child with a doting grandmother who was there to be the shoulder he needed to cry on when he just didn't understand. For as long as he can remember, he has been told of the heroic tales and epic love story of Remus and Tonks. At first, they were fun stories told to him to help him sleep at night, but as he grew old enough to understand who these mythical heroes were meant to be to him - well, it was confusing. Teddy was plagued with questions, and while Andromeda tried her best to answer them as honestly as she thought he could understand, it didn't help. Most of his questions were without answers. It took him a while before he could grasp the fact that his parents were dead and that meant they were gone and unable to come back. When he would get upset with his Granmum being unreasonable, he'd storm to his room and pack a bag with a stuffed animal from his mum, his father's medal and a toothbrush and then wait for them by the door. They had to come. Once it did finally click for him, it was with an emotional display at the cemetery. He didn't pack a bag again.
(2004 - 2008)
As he grew a bit older and the other adults in his life grew more stable, he was allowed to spend more time with his Godfather and his bride. It proved to be a good thing for him, even if he tended to embarrass his Granmum on occasion by repeating things she said and talking about death as if it were a normal thing for a five-year-old to speak of. He was a handful and quite easily their surrogate experiment child, at least until he was six years old and he was replaced by a screeching (and stinky) baby. Everyone was expecting joy, but all Teddy could feel was jealousy.
His visits with the Potters became less frequent as they settled into their roles, and Teddy couldn't help but feel replaced. He began to act out once again and packing his bags at every disagreement with Andromeda. His parents were going to save him, they had to now, and they were going to love him and only him forever. Of course, every morning he'd wake up back in his bed and disappointed. This disappointment only added to his resentment that James Sirius got to have his mummy and daddy to love him, and for quite a while Teddy refused to visit. Eventually, Andromeda helped Teddy find the right words to tell Harry how he felt, and while it certainly helped some, he'd come to forget all about it by the time James with big enough to actually be fun.
The births of Albus and Lily were better than what Jamie had unknowingly gone through, but Teddy was still unreasonably jealous. With each new birth, he was convinced that he was being pushed out and replaced, that there would not be enough supper for him to eat with the Potters as well. He adores the three of them as his own little siblings, especially Lily Luna who stole his heart the first time she giggled at his hair changing.
(01 September 2009)
Teddy was so excited for this day that when it finally became a reality...he didn't want to go anymore. The idea of leaving his Granmum for months was stressful and he made her promise that she would be okay as long as he came right home for Christmas. In the sorting ceremony, Teddy was very nearly a hatstall as the piece of fabric tried to sort through where he best fit. Eventually, it just asked him where he'd like to go and he responded Gryffindor like his father. He had a home full of his mother's life, but other than stories, Remus was a distant part of him. He hoped that maybe being in the same house would fix this, and give him some sort of attachment, but the hat had something else in mind when it ignored him completely and sorted him into Hufflepuff instead. Teddy made friends quickly by using his gift as an ice breaker.
(2012 - 2014)
Third-year and he finally got to go to Hogsmeade with the older students. That spring, however, Teddy was with his friends and walking in seeing distance of the Shrieking Shack when a kid began to howl at him as another whimpered like an infant. Teddy approached the boys assuming what they had meant by it only to be informed that the Shack had been where "his hound of a father has spent his moonlit nights". Overcome with rage that sent his turquoise locks a deep red, Teddy pulled his wand just to have a professor intervene and escort him back tot he castle. Somehow he had gotten detention for them being pricks. What hurt the most was that no one had told him just how close he had been to something that was so very private to his father. That the thing he had been looking for was only a few short miles away from his four-poster. One could say that it was the beginning of the end of Teddy trying to trust these so-called people who loved him, who allowed him to be embarrassed in such an extreme matter. His grades began to slip and his attitude shot up to obnoxious levels as he started to talk back and impersonate his professors. While once he had been a class clown for the sake of a laugh, now he was out to embarrass people as he had been. It was mean, and it was destructive, but he didn't know how else to express himself. It wasn't like they ever listened to him anyway.
Fourth and fifth years were seemingly better, partially because he now had extended family with him, but also due to discovering just how much fun girls were. Teddy discovered the thrill of a good snog. The rush to being so close, so vulnerable, and yet so in control with someone else, and he was sure to work his charm in leading girls down the same exhilarating path. He'd also begun to channel his anger and extreme mood swings with self-harm, something that was far too easy to cover up with his abilities. While he displayed affection with girls in every public location he could, what he did to himself remained a secret from even his closest mates. At least his grades were somewhat improving?
(08 July 2014)
This particular summer brought his attention to one miss Victoire Weasley, a girl he had known for her entire life but who had never caught his eye quite like that before. Puberty was a blessing, really. The pair became quite inseparable and caught the attention of Rita Skeeter at the Quidditch World Cup. What could have made for a good laugh, took a turn for the worse when Ginny Potter, the woman that was basically a Mum to him, defending Albus and Angelina, but allowed Teddy's name to be thrown in the mud as a "lurking lanky wild boy". She allowed him to be spoken of like a predator and it broke him in a way he didn't need at 16.
After Skeeter's article came out claiming he needed an "urgent intervention", something in Teddy snapped, leading him to lock himself in his room and cover his window to take his pain out on his thigh. He went too far and finally his secret was discovered by his horrified grandmother. Despite his protests, she had him meet with a healer and after a number of appointments, he was given a prescription for an antidepressant. He resisted, oh how he resisted, even going as far as to force himself to vomit so the potion wouldn't take. He wasn't crazy. He wasn't depressed. He just got overwhelmed on occasion and didn't need to take medication every day! He didn't need his dormmates to see him taking a potion every day. It took Andromeda telling him her fear of losing him to get him to finally cooperate. Mostly.
(2015)
Despite his up and down reputation, Headmistress McGonagall thought it was a good idea to send Teddy the Head Boy badge the summer before his seventh year. It was a shock, to say the least, and part of him is still convinced that it was only given to him due to his associations and the guilt that people have when they know his story. In reality, she was giving him a chance to break free from the negative press that followed him around by giving him something positive to work with. Plus he had been doing quite a bit better since starting his medication, and with a steady girlfriend who liked to force him to study, he wasn't getting into too much trouble anymore. It was a shame that he didn't really see it that way at the time.
(2016)
Finally done with his education and with absolutely no aspirations, Teddy armed himself with a small pack and no concrete plan before taking off to Wales to find the other half of his roots. At first he'd told his grandmother that he would be travelling with friends, but unfortunately for him, she had access to his Instagram and Facebook and therefore his friends...who were very much not in Wales with him. After that very loud Howler, he'd reassured her that he had a place to stay and would be home by Christmas. That place just so happened to be with a little old witch, who didn't speak a lick of english, but had taken pity on him when he may or may not have been robbed. He crashed on her couch when his wanderings brought him nothing but disappointment and an empty stomach and helped her tend to her sheep. It wasn't nearly as glorious as his stories would make it sound, but being there in Wales was too important for him to just give up and go home.
He did go home for Christmas and found himself wrapped up in Victoire again for two weeks before she was off again and so was he. In the end, he found nothing that made him feel closer to his father, but he'd somewhat picked up a new language and was pretty sure his grandmother had become super jealous of the little old witch.
(2017)
On his way back home from Wales, Teddy took a massive detour and ended up in Hogsmeade at the same time as a weekend for the students happened. He didn't care who Victoire was with at the time, he made his way right to her and poured months of missing her into that kiss. Before she had to go back to the castle, he made arrangements with her for her birthday, promising to sneak her out, but not telling her what for. He then had between that moment to nightfall to make good on that and ended up taking her to a music festival where they spent far more time in a tent than they did mingling.
Being home also meant that his Granmum could get on him again about his mental health. The potion he'd been given had helped with some of his symptoms, but his disproportionate reactions to emotional stress remained unchanged and even proved all the more stressful for him. He was 19 now, and his healer suggested a number of tests for him to go through in order to hopefully isolate a more productive disorder outside of the original "severe depression". He was nearly 21 before he was finally properly diagnosed with borderline personality disorder; his potions adjusted, and a magi-psychotherapist added to his resources.
(2018 - 2020)
The summer of 2018 was incredibly difficult for Teddy since he'd fully expected Victoire to come home so they could go back to being together for good. What happened instead was that she went to France. He couldn't really be upset with her, he'd done the same sort of roots searching two years before, but he was still upset. Upset enough that he relapsed briefly, quitting his job and holing himself up in his room until Andromeda decided to take him on a trip. When the trip was over, he was outside Victoire's art class in France, needing to see her.
Eventually, she did come back home, and Teddy took up a job Hermione had offered him at the Ministry just to be close to her. It was a pointed job, setting him up in the post room so he was surrounded by all of the inboxes of the different departments within the ministry. It was a boring job. But it was also a job that gave him an excuse to owl Victoire at any time.
As they stayed close together, they remained constant and Teddy was starting to get really comfortable with where they were and where they were going. He still had absolutely no idea what he was going to do with his life other than her, but that only mattered when his Granmum hounded him about it. The most important thing was him and Victoire and they were good. Everything was going great. Then he had to go and turn 22 and ten days later she was gone without a word. Teddy relapsed hard.
(2022 - 2023)
More adjustments were made for his mental health and Teddy got on with his life, dating here and there, but mostly deep-diving into the magical world of an amateur confectionery to post all over his Instagram. When Teddy saw that Victoire was back in France, he made his way there without much thought as to what exactly he was doing. His feet needed to see her. What little plan he did have once there was to "accidentally" run into her, only for that to be exactly what ended up happening. It was dumb, for all the hurt he hadn't quite been able to let go of, it could have gotten completely out of hand, but instead, he was just relieved to see that she was okay. He'd kept up with her social media accounts enough to know she was probably okay but to actually see her seem...lighter, the rest of it didn't seem as important. They caught up a bit and then kept in touch. When she moved back to England the following year, he was in a much better place than he'd been when she left. By the end of that year, they were falling into old habits with each other, but with much healthier mindsets and communication.
(Present Day)
Teddy is still working the Post, though higher up the chain. He has been gaining traction with his little confectionery business that, until recently, had been mostly online and through word of mouth via Ministry contacts. He has gotten in with a couple of caterers as candy buffets continue to gain popularity and a small contract with the ministry for special events. He would like to someday open a shop all his own but isn't quite willing to make that leap of faith just yet.
IN CHARACTER
What is your defining characteristic?
TURQUOISE
When asked how you are, how often do you answer truthfully?
USUALLY TOO TRUTHFULLY
What is the most pain you've ever been in that wasn't physical?
IT ALL FEELS PHYSICAL
BEING GHOSTED BY SOMEONE YOU COULD FEEL WAS YOUR PERSON
When was the last time you felt most yourself?
AS IN WHO I WANT TO BE?
NOW
DEFINITELY NOW
What are you still trying to prove to yourself?
I'M NOT BLOODY MAD
What would your younger self not believe about your life today?
I DON'T KNOW THAT MY YOUNGER SELF THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE A ME TODAY
MUCH YOUNGER THAN THAT--
PROBABLY THAT I'VE A BORING MINISTRY JOB TO PAY BILLS
THE BETRAYAL
What about yourself is hardest to admit?
I'M TOO MUCH
AND THAT'S OKAY
What memory makes you smile just thinking about it?
BALI
I'M REALLY FUCKING GLAD I UP AND WENT WITH HER TO BALI
What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?
ANYTHING THAT IS PUNCHING DOWN
POINT BLANK PERIOD
What would you change about the way you were raised, if you could?
FUCK
I MEAN
I GUESS I'D CHANGE HOW LONELY GRANMYM ALWAYS WAS
Is there a feeling you miss?
THIS IS GOING TO SOUND TERRIBLE
BUT
THE EXTREMES
THE RUSH OF SPUR-OF-THE-MOMENT EXTREME PARKOUR
I DON'T MISS THAT BRAND OF CHAOS
BUT I DO MISS THE HIGH
What can you be kinder towards yourself about?
MY ANSWER TO THE PREVIOUS QUESTION
WHEN MY HEAD SLIPS
What do you need right now more than anything?
LUCK THAT I CAN KEEP UP THIS MOMENTUM
I feel loved when ____________.
WHEN SOMEONE TAKES THE TIME TO NOT JUST LISTEN
BUT SO SEE ME
YOU KNOW?
WHEN SHE SEES ME IT'S LIKE NOTHING ELSE
I WANT NOTHING ELSE
How would you like to be described to a stranger?
TURQUOISE
ELEVATOR PITCH
He's probably always going to be surrounded in some kind of drama, but as one of the eldest in the building, and someone that most people know, the maturity he has gained over the years could be helpful to those who need it. I want to explore his growing excitement about his little side hustle as he supports others to move a lot faster with their passions than he is with his lol. See how long it takes Vic to smother him in his sleep.
NAME.
Jen
TZ.
EST
PB.
Colin Ford
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